As a Law Enforcement officer, I faced situations that scared me. Times that I went into places and situations where there was a good chance I could be hurt or even killed. It was my duty, so I did it. Often, mostly because I was backing up another officer and he was counting on me to be there and ready. I know what fear is. I know that courage isn't the absence of fear. It's being afraid but performing anyway. I'm forever thankful that I never had to use deadly force against another person. Actually, despite what Hollywood might show you, very few police ever do. But I faced situations where the probability of such a thing existed.
Fear. Especially that fear of Knowing that what you are doing is likely to hurt or even kill you. That feeling of warmth, flowing through your body, legs feeling weak and shaky, hands trembling...but moving forward anyway. I've been there and I know that most of you have as well, at one level or another. Combat veterans know exactly what I'm talking about.
When I used to teach classes to the young men in Church, I had a problem, in my head and heart. I was completely opposed to the "turn the other cheek" philosophy. I still believe that the best deterrence of crime is that the criminal fear the victim. I'm a strong proponent of self defense, preferably instant, hard, fast and destructive responses to any attack. Thus, I often had a problem with the teachings of my Savior. His lesson is love and forgiveness. For EVERYone!
D&C 64; 9-10: "9 Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin.
10 I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men."
Mathew 5; 38-39: "Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also."
This pacifist philosophy was and is very hard for me to accept. And, here is the dilemma I faced as a teacher. How to reconcile what I saw, in my heart, as a weak philosophy and finding courage and strength in the Lord. What example of such courage did I see? Well, I do recognize the courage in being able to adhere to these principles. I'm not sure I would have the courage to just accept an assault without responding with violence myself, even today. It does take courage to let someone assault you, especially if you are capable of returning the favor!
But I have come to see an even greater, even incredible, example of the unsurpassed courage of the Savior. He walked up the hill to Gethsemane, KNOWING what He would face there. He HAD to know! In order for Him to make a true choice. To CHOOSE to take all our pains, sufferings and anguish on Himself; to truly activate His agency...He Had To Know that the pain would be more than any human could bear.
You've been hurt before. Women in childbirth, anyone in accidents or sickness. Everyone faces pain and suffering at some time in their lives. Have you ever suffered such pain that you bled from every pore?
Luke 22: 42-44: "42 Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.
43 And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him.
44 And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground."
D&C 19; 18-19: "18 Which suffering caused myself, even God, the greatest of all, to tremble because of pain, and to bleed at every pore, and to suffer both body and spirit—and would that I might not drink the bitter cup, and shrink
19 Nevertheless, glory be to the Father, and I partook and finished my preparations unto the children of men."
Even the torture on Calvary; nails driven into His hands, arms and feet. Hanging from those nails for hours. Scourging, flaying, beaten and eventually stabbed. The terrible manner in which He
was killed...didn't make Him sweat blood.
He KNEW what He faced! But, because He also knew it was necessary for the whole world...for the whole plan to work, He walked up that hill to the Garden of Gethsemane, knelt before the Father and said: "not my will, but thine, be done".
Who else would have the courage to make that walk? My knees would buckle. I'd cry out for deliverance. I'd turn away. I don't believe I could EVER have the incredible courage to walk into, not certain death. No. Certain agony. Indescribable agony.
And then, on Calvary, to look on His torturers. To look on people who, with a word, He could destroy. To look on people who would one day face Him in judgement. Did He order their destruction? Did He tell them: "Just you wait. Your time's comin'"?
Obviously not. Luke 23;32: "Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do."
Why? Why did Jesus walk into such agony? Why did He allow himself to be tortured to death? He had all power to stop the whole process. With a word He could have laid waste to the entire Roman army, before a single nail was hammered into his flesh. He could have chosen not to "drink from the bitter cup". But He did. Love. Love and Duty, integrity, the fulfillment of a promise made to us all. Courage.
And what does He ask in return? John 14;15: "If ye love me, keep my commandments."
And, if we don't? Acts 2;38: "Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost."
Mathew 22: 37-39: "Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
This is the first and great commandment.
And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself."
He asks us to believe, to love and to repent. He doesn't put a limit on repentance. It's not "three strikes and you're out" He forgives. His Atonement is for all people forever. All He is really asking is that we continue to try. When we fail, we turn to Him and ask for...and receive...forgiveness and then we keep on trying.
It seems to me that the hardest thing for people to grasp is the fact of a living God. The fact of an
eternal world; a spirit world that we cannot see. Once you accept that this earthly life isn't it. Once you realize that your spirit is eternal and that life is eternal, then you are ready to accept the fact of Jesus Christ and the Plan of Happiness.
I know that there is a God. I know that Jesus Christ lives, that He suffered the pain and anguish of sin, heartache, and all that we might face, in this world or the next. I know that He did this out of love for each of us. He knows our names. He hears and answers our prayers.
I know that He has restored His Church on the earth again. I know that He still speaks through a living Prophet. I also know that He speaks to each of us, through the Holy Ghost.
These things are True! If we believe in Jesus Christ...if we even just WANT to believe in Him...then the truth can be found
This is my testimony to you, in the sacred name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...amen.